Finally..

Assalamualaikum,semua...

memang dah agak lama tak update blog ni..tak tau nak tulis pasal apa..kadang2 tu malas pulak..
actually,masih tak ada apa2 yang nak dikongsikan..just my feeling was so bad recently.i also don't why..the tears were falling like i was missing something.or more accurate,miss someone..miss somewhere..
one story that i want to share about my life,my dear blog..
it's about 3 or 4 days,i did not call or text my dear foster sister at the college..just to make her comfortable and more focus to her study..
last night,i felt something was not right.so,i sent her a message..just to know her condition..it was already late actually.i expected that she will not reply the message because usually she was already go for bed.but,what was made me shock is she replied by saying..'demam la'..
my heart was beating fastly..i doesn't know what to do or say..anxiously,i just ask her to close her eyes and sleep..
that night,seriously for the first time i can't sleep..because worrying about her.i tried to make myself comfortable but i still can't sound asleep.
before this,she always by my side when i felt sick.i also tried the best to do the same thing when she felt sick..but now i can't do anything.she was far from me now.i doesn't know what was happened to her all the time.i felt so bad and useless.what the mean of a sister i was..
this morning,i text her again to know the news from her.she was taken to the clinic by teacher.i guess she was sick badly because before this she was hardly to go to the clinic.i felt so guilty for not being by her side when she was in trouble.i worry about her so much..i didn't text her to let her get enough rest.
this night,i text her to know whether she still in fever..but she doesn't reply.it make me worry until now.maybe she was attacked by the sickness again.if i can be there now,i will never let her felt like this.ya Allah,tolong laa..i just want her to recover.that's all..please,ya Allah..i am ready to replace her.sincerely..dengarlah aku,ya tuhan..aku mohon